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Kena


At the end of it all, we still remain.

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Here you can read what I have to say about whatever happens in my life. Updates, news, thoughts, whatever really.

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Reading

2026-08-24

I've been reading a lot more recently. I never did it when younger but it's fun. Struggling a lot with focus and attention tbh. While I think a lot of it has to do with ADHD, I think most of it is just that I'm not used to reading a lot so it takes more effort to get through and it can feel rather draining. Even when reading what's become my favourite book, House of Leaves, I still struggle after a bit.

I've also read the first book of heartstopper. My local library had volume 1-5 in their queer section and I recognized the name from somewhere so I gave it a shot. Honestly while it's very cute it just doesn't hit like these kinds of comics used to, very enjoyable tho.

Ugh...

2026-08-23

FUCK AI

UGH! So it turns out that my school not only have their own AI chatbot but they're also using it for evaluations and feedback. Like I'm supposed to write an assignment only for a fuckass AI agent to read it and give me feedback, atp what's even the point of teachers???

This shit is gen so fucking cringe. I bet you its also not even the teachers fault either. I would feel insulted if I had a full teachers education and was told a god damn robot would do my job for me.

I can't legally call for anyone's death... So I won't. However, what I can and will say is that these people, the ones putting AI and LLMs into everything are a burden on society. Life would actually be substantially better if they didn't exist.

Other news

In other news I'm working on a redesign of the entire site... again. Not sure if it's going to be used or even if it'll turn out well. I mostly want to do it because right now I'm wasting so much space and it does NOT look good on phones. I want to make it properly utilize screen space and also display on phones. Stay tuned glorplings...

Update

2026-08-20

Movies

I've been watching a lot of movies as of late and I'm going to start making posts about them. I've already made one for Orson Welles' 'The Trial'

Misinformation

On another note. I also corrected some misinformation. It was Åkesson's friend who said "We need a new hitler" and not Åkesson himself.

Life

Other than that, While updates here have been slow, they wont get any faster. I've recently started studying again and as such I'll have less time to develop this page. However I dont see that as a problem since I feel as if it's already in a good state.

curl!

2026-05-25

curl https://kena.gay

You can now curl this website for a special page! Enjoy exploring!

Rösta!!

2026-05-19

Glöm aldrig hur SD våldtog oss. Rösta vänster.

Våran demokrati faller under högerns hat och teror. De är som villda djur, drivs endasst utav instinkt.

Movies!

Here are some movies I've watched recently. Feel free to have a read.

The Trial

★ ★ ★ ★ ★

The 1962 classic by Orson Welles

Bullshit, love, bullshit, love is bullshit

I am not allowed to have feelings
Feelings would complicate this
I'm a stupid ugly stuttering asshole
There is no dignity in my anger
Mind if I cough in your ear all night?
Mind if I resent you for a year tonight?
I am not the type of man
Who can fall asleep in someone else's arms

(Didn't mean to lie 'bout it all) I love you, sometimes
I love you but it's hard to say
There are times when I don't love
I can't love anything in this world

I want you to know, I want you to know
I want you to know that I'm
But I hope that you're
I hope that you're a-

It doesn't matter what I say
If you don't say anything in response
The final phrase of my last sentence
Hangs in the air, sounding stupider and stupider
Why can't you at least laugh?
I tried so hard to find the right words
But it's a matter of timing, you only have so long
To capture the feeling before it's gone

Here is a demo of my latest sentence
I'll fill in the good parts later
I'll make it fit together real nice
And cut out all the "likes"

Two days ago it was really bad
I couldn't get my head straight all day
And everything you said seemed to have an edge
You were disappointed and I didn't know why
Eventually it came to a head
Over something as stupid as making coffee
You said it was a mistake to ever try and help me
Then, you went in the kitchen

I drove off to go buy some stuff
Which was a mistake because
I didn't want to come back
I just sat in the parking lot
And dabbed at my thumb, which was bleeding for some reason
Leaving a trail of red blossoms on the napkin
I felt sick and I didn't know what to do
How long would it be before I could face you?

Flashback to the first angry song I had to hide from you
It goes like this:
I am hiding from you at the
QFC, QFC, QFC

Michael and Brian broke up today
But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them
Frankie and Ava broke up today
But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them
Felice and Lanky broke up today
But we're not like them, no, nothing like them
John and Yoko separated for a year
But we're not like them, no, nothing like them
The Beatles broke up today
But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them
Paul said, "I just started doubting everything I did"
But you're not like him, no, you're nothing like him

(I hope that you are! I hope that you are!)

Your parents and my parents, well, let's not get into that
'Cause we're not like them, we are nothing like them
Degnan and Skippy haven't spoken for a while
But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them, no no

(I hope that you are! I hope that you are!)

I hope that you're still asleep